Someone To Blame

If you have followed our faith journey, you know Abba Father had me start a cleaning business in whatever area He has called Jerry and I to. In doing so, He has taught me to discern and identify unholy spirits so while physically disinfecting a space, I sometimes am also disinfecting the unholy germs from that space (if I sense any). In other words, while cleaning I may be praying for that couple’s marriage or asking the Lord for financial blessings for the client or to help them with addictions or depression or any other potential spirit. I do the same while cleaning for a faith-based pregnancy resource center. Additionally, He has had me discern unholy spirits holding larger body of believers in captivity. Consequently, He instructs me to lovingly correct and encourage sometimes individuals and or groups on how to be healed from toxic germs infecting them. The reactions vary, but one thing I have been taught by the Spirit is that it isn’t my problem so to speak with how people respond to His Spirit of Holiness, but rather my problem is if I will step out in faith and obey the Spirit by indeed sharing with that individual or body of believers what the Holy Spirit wants to bless them with.

Through it all, while comparing my own experience of allowing the Holy Spirit to disinfect me, I realize the biggest obstacle the Holy Spirit encounters in us is blame. Whenever confronted with some form of evil, we as individuals and a society since the beginning of time in the Garden of Eden have blamed others hoping to thwart the consequences of evil. In Genesis 2:16-17, God instructed Adam on not to eat of a certain tree in the garden for in doing so, it would be sinning against God and consequently introduce death. Romans 6:23 says, “For the wages of sin is death.” Upon Adam being confronted by God about this grievous act of rebelling against God’s instruction not to eat of that tree, Adam blamed God Himself for giving him that woman, he also blamed Eve, and Eve blamed the deceiving serpent(Genesis 3:12-13). As a result of Adam, Eve, and the serpent going against God’s instructions, God’s command, God’s voice, all three suffered serious consequences, that still manifest today (i.e. woman still have pain in childbirth). By blaming one another, they had hoped to avoid suffering.

Out of a deceived heart, Eve and Adam rebelled against the instructions of God. How were they deceived? How are any of us deceived? If Satan can get us to doubt God’s word for us found in the Bible, we will reflect on Satan’s word, not God’s, and ultimately choose whom we will serve. Unfortunately, Adam and Eve chose to serve Satan, an unholy spirit, in that moment as do many of us today when we doubt and ultimately, reject God’s instructions for living. Adam and Eve violated God’s boundaries and had to live with the consequences. When God gives instructions for how to live and love, He means them. Tragically, due to deception conceived in doubt, mankind tends to violate God’s instructions thereby elevating themselves above God.

When God enforces His boundaries, which is still love, being tough love, designed to bless us, not harm us, mankind tends to blame others or other ideologies or even objects in attempt to avoid God’s disciplining love.

We create legislation or more boundaries as if God’s boundaries aren’t enough. We want to blame religions, blame theologies, or create counter theologies. We establish non-profits, ministries, and causes all striving to somehow feel in control when in reality only God is in control.

Rather than realizing it’s due to our own deceived hearts as the source of all evil, we prefer to blame others for in doing so it is easier than looking deep within. Due to our own spiritual captivity, we find ourselves held captive to the victim-mentality and so out of our pain we choose to blame.

Due to our own spiritual captivity, we find ourselves held captive to the victim-mentality and so out of our pain we choose to blame.

However, so long as we continue to deceive ourselves not recognizing the root source of evil, we will never truly be set free, we will never truly experience peace, wholeness, shalom.

By continuing to blame objects, others, or ideologies, all we are really doing is further putting ourselves and others into captivity.

When I was in my upper twenties, after living a decade of selfishness and rebellion to God’s instructions, I found myself in physical captivity. I was married to an abusive man. It is only by the grace of God hearing my desperate literal cry of, “JESUS, SAVE ME!” upon being suffocated and strangled by the hands of my then husband, that my eyes were opened to the unholy spirits lurking within my home and heart for at the very moment, my husband, full of an UNholy spirit, immediately let me go, saying in a different voice, “Don’t cry out to Jesus!”. It took many years, overall, with only the help of the Holy Spirit, to realize my own spiritual captivity led to that form of physical captivity. For I was like most other young ladies in my twenties, simply having sexual relations with men outside of the context of marriage. Deceived and unable to discern unholy spirits blinded by lust, in the name of love, I would dismiss the red flags subtly presented in the course of a relationship. Even if one relationship wouldn’t work out, I would find myself in yet another abusive relationship that violated my boundaries. I repeated this pattern of hooking up with boundary-busting men, not realizing that I too was a ‘boundary-buster’ because I would violate God’s boundaries as well as others’ boundaries it just manifested differently than these unhealthy men I was sleeping with. Perhaps you could say due to my deceived, boundary busting heart, I was sleeping with the enemy, an unholy spirit. Various variables manifested causing all sorts of twist and turns further leading me into an eventual dangerous captivity, but God in His goodness used it all, to reveal to me truth and love.

Once I was set free from that abusive marriage and received the Holy Spirit just weeks after our divorce, I eventually felt led to start a Domestic Violence ministry that specialized in helping pregnant victims of domestic violence housing. I had a 5 bedroom house at the time in the city in Pennsylvania so I took in pregnant young ladies fleeing from abusive relationships. Prior to doing so, I became a certified domestic violence advocate through the YWCA as well as a certified faith-based domestic violence support group leader through Focus Ministries, based out of Chicago. All of it was revealing and healing. One such critical issue I realized in time, through the Holy Spirit’s help, was that so long as I blamed my x-husband or my upbringing or whatever else, I was still not addressing what led to my captivity, which ultimately was my deceived heart. I also had to address the motive in establishing a 501(c)3 non-profit domestic violence ministry for I realized even though it was a very good thing and I sincerely wanted to help people, I was also motivated by my own hurt, fear of it happening again to others, as well as wanting to prove I am a good enough – I am a good person. In other words, my motives were not from a pure heart and I was still being held captive by a victim-mentality. In His time, Abba Father used it all to reveal me the unholy spirits rooted deep within that needed to be evicted. In doing so, His purpose was to make all things beautiful in His time (Ecclesiastes 3:11).

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The Holy Spirit did what He usually does by first addressing the lie about sexual immorality being permitted outside of marriage. I argued with Him that I don’t have a problem, but He quickly showed me otherwise. Once my eyes were open to the truth of my deceived heart, I wept and wept genuinely repentant. Now the Holy Spirit was finally getting somewhere within my heart. By comparing myself to other young ladies I knew, my behavior seemed saintly. But we must stop comparing ourselves to others and instead compare ourselves to the word of God- His standards. Many don’t realize, upon initiating the new covenant, Yeshua/Jesus raised God’s standards of holiness, for He of all people could being He died so we can be holy, like God is holy. Notice, Jesus/Yeshua taught just looking at another lustfully is considered adultery and a violation of God’s commands versus simply the act of adultery as a violation.

Until there is a new heaven and new earth, evil will always linger. People will continue to be deceived and propagate deception. We cannot control other people’s deceived hearts. No amount of legislation, no amount of education, no amount of non-profits or ministries can thwart an unholy spirit. Not that various efforts to do so are wrong, but just realize only the Holy Spirit in each of our hearts can effectively thwart evil.

Do you want to quell abuse, violence, terrorism, anti-semitism, discrimination, pride, entitlement, unhealthy relationships, abortion, and other evils manifesting in the flesh? Allow the Spirit of Holiness to uproot the unholy spirits hiding deep within your deceived heart. It’s an ongoing ‘horribly-amazing-purification-process’, a term I often use in my blogs and vlogs, but until each of us do so, we will always experience evil. May we cry out, “Jesus, Save Me! Abba, create in me a clean heart.” โค

Shalom and Amen.

Carrie R. Turner, 10.23.19

๐ŸŽถFor Such A Time As This๐ŸŽถ

I hope you had a lovely Shabbat! Today I got to sing a solo with my guitar at congregation. I was nervous as it was the first time for this congregation. Evidently, the Ruach (Spirit) moved, people were crying and healed too. Also, another singer told me the Lord was having her tell me the meaning of my name is significant, all of which is confirmation of a previous post I wrote about my name meaning “song of joy” and being like a musical prophets of sorts. Then while sitting in service the Ruach reminded me of an event that happened YEARS ago. Sometime in 2010 (?), I was at a revival evening service in a small church in Lansdowne, Maryland that I had never been to. A guest speaker / prophet was speaking. He was passionate and loud. I was just a baby in gifts of the Spirit back then, was starting over in life, and hungry for God. Suddenly, in the midst of the service, the prophet abruptly called me out of the crowd saying something about God has a call on my life that the devil has tried numerous times to thwart it even by trying to kill me, but God had and still has me covered. Little did he know all the hellish things I overcame like being suffocated by my ex, or my ex pointing a shot gun at me, or my car being set on fire, or houses and my job being shot up! So yes, you could say the devil tried numerous times, BUT what the devil meant for harm, God meant for good. Here I am today, healed from those nightmares, allowing Abba to use my voice to sing prophetic lullabies of love to those going through a hell of their own. I had forgotten all about that prophet and intentionally left the past in the past, but it was as if Abba wanted me to know “For such a time as this.” ๐ŸŽถ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ™Œ

Her Story – In Depth!

From heartache to a heart full of love, Carrie shares her testimony.

Episode 45: How I Started To Hear God’s Voice

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(Recorded July 8, 2018) On her daughter’s 10th birthday, Carrie shares how the Lord started to teach her how to hear His voice while pregnant and how He ultimately called Carrie to make an adoption plan.

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Shalom!

Much love in the warmth of the Son,
Carrie