Seabbatical: Toldot | Video

Better late than never! I have been battling a pesky and inconvenient sinus infection all week so I apologize for the delayed ‘Seabbatical’, which I normally publish on YouTube on Friday evenings. Due to my illness, I recorded it, edited it, and published it today, Saturday. Nevertheless, I hope it blesses you richly. This recording is themes and lessons I gleaned from this week’s Torah portion (Genesis 25:19-28:9 | Malachi 1:1-2:7).

Someone To Blame

If you have followed our faith journey, you know Abba Father had me start a cleaning business in whatever area He has called Jerry and I to. In doing so, He has taught me to discern and identify unholy spirits so while physically disinfecting a space, I sometimes am also disinfecting the unholy germs from that space (if I sense any). In other words, while cleaning I may be praying for that couple’s marriage or asking the Lord for financial blessings for the client or to help them with addictions or depression or any other potential spirit. I do the same while cleaning for a faith-based pregnancy resource center. Additionally, He has had me discern unholy spirits holding larger body of believers in captivity. Consequently, He instructs me to lovingly correct and encourage sometimes individuals and or groups on how to be healed from toxic germs infecting them. The reactions vary, but one thing I have been taught by the Spirit is that it isn’t my problem so to speak with how people respond to His Spirit of Holiness, but rather my problem is if I will step out in faith and obey the Spirit by indeed sharing with that individual or body of believers what the Holy Spirit wants to bless them with.

Through it all, while comparing my own experience of allowing the Holy Spirit to disinfect me, I realize the biggest obstacle the Holy Spirit encounters in us is blame. Whenever confronted with some form of evil, we as individuals and a society since the beginning of time in the Garden of Eden have blamed others hoping to thwart the consequences of evil. In Genesis 2:16-17, God instructed Adam on not to eat of a certain tree in the garden for in doing so, it would be sinning against God and consequently introduce death. Romans 6:23 says, “For the wages of sin is death.” Upon Adam being confronted by God about this grievous act of rebelling against God’s instruction not to eat of that tree, Adam blamed God Himself for giving him that woman, he also blamed Eve, and Eve blamed the deceiving serpent(Genesis 3:12-13). As a result of Adam, Eve, and the serpent going against God’s instructions, God’s command, God’s voice, all three suffered serious consequences, that still manifest today (i.e. woman still have pain in childbirth). By blaming one another, they had hoped to avoid suffering.

Out of a deceived heart, Eve and Adam rebelled against the instructions of God. How were they deceived? How are any of us deceived? If Satan can get us to doubt God’s word for us found in the Bible, we will reflect on Satan’s word, not God’s, and ultimately choose whom we will serve. Unfortunately, Adam and Eve chose to serve Satan, an unholy spirit, in that moment as do many of us today when we doubt and ultimately, reject God’s instructions for living. Adam and Eve violated God’s boundaries and had to live with the consequences. When God gives instructions for how to live and love, He means them. Tragically, due to deception conceived in doubt, mankind tends to violate God’s instructions thereby elevating themselves above God.

When God enforces His boundaries, which is still love, being tough love, designed to bless us, not harm us, mankind tends to blame others or other ideologies or even objects in attempt to avoid God’s disciplining love.

We create legislation or more boundaries as if God’s boundaries aren’t enough. We want to blame religions, blame theologies, or create counter theologies. We establish non-profits, ministries, and causes all striving to somehow feel in control when in reality only God is in control.

Rather than realizing it’s due to our own deceived hearts as the source of all evil, we prefer to blame others for in doing so it is easier than looking deep within. Due to our own spiritual captivity, we find ourselves held captive to the victim-mentality and so out of our pain we choose to blame.

Due to our own spiritual captivity, we find ourselves held captive to the victim-mentality and so out of our pain we choose to blame.

However, so long as we continue to deceive ourselves not recognizing the root source of evil, we will never truly be set free, we will never truly experience peace, wholeness, shalom.

By continuing to blame objects, others, or ideologies, all we are really doing is further putting ourselves and others into captivity.

When I was in my upper twenties, after living a decade of selfishness and rebellion to God’s instructions, I found myself in physical captivity. I was married to an abusive man. It is only by the grace of God hearing my desperate literal cry of, “JESUS, SAVE ME!” upon being suffocated and strangled by the hands of my then husband, that my eyes were opened to the unholy spirits lurking within my home and heart for at the very moment, my husband, full of an UNholy spirit, immediately let me go, saying in a different voice, “Don’t cry out to Jesus!”. It took many years, overall, with only the help of the Holy Spirit, to realize my own spiritual captivity led to that form of physical captivity. For I was like most other young ladies in my twenties, simply having sexual relations with men outside of the context of marriage. Deceived and unable to discern unholy spirits blinded by lust, in the name of love, I would dismiss the red flags subtly presented in the course of a relationship. Even if one relationship wouldn’t work out, I would find myself in yet another abusive relationship that violated my boundaries. I repeated this pattern of hooking up with boundary-busting men, not realizing that I too was a ‘boundary-buster’ because I would violate God’s boundaries as well as others’ boundaries it just manifested differently than these unhealthy men I was sleeping with. Perhaps you could say due to my deceived, boundary busting heart, I was sleeping with the enemy, an unholy spirit. Various variables manifested causing all sorts of twist and turns further leading me into an eventual dangerous captivity, but God in His goodness used it all, to reveal to me truth and love.

Once I was set free from that abusive marriage and received the Holy Spirit just weeks after our divorce, I eventually felt led to start a Domestic Violence ministry that specialized in helping pregnant victims of domestic violence housing. I had a 5 bedroom house at the time in the city in Pennsylvania so I took in pregnant young ladies fleeing from abusive relationships. Prior to doing so, I became a certified domestic violence advocate through the YWCA as well as a certified faith-based domestic violence support group leader through Focus Ministries, based out of Chicago. All of it was revealing and healing. One such critical issue I realized in time, through the Holy Spirit’s help, was that so long as I blamed my x-husband or my upbringing or whatever else, I was still not addressing what led to my captivity, which ultimately was my deceived heart. I also had to address the motive in establishing a 501(c)3 non-profit domestic violence ministry for I realized even though it was a very good thing and I sincerely wanted to help people, I was also motivated by my own hurt, fear of it happening again to others, as well as wanting to prove I am a good enough – I am a good person. In other words, my motives were not from a pure heart and I was still being held captive by a victim-mentality. In His time, Abba Father used it all to reveal me the unholy spirits rooted deep within that needed to be evicted. In doing so, His purpose was to make all things beautiful in His time (Ecclesiastes 3:11).

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The Holy Spirit did what He usually does by first addressing the lie about sexual immorality being permitted outside of marriage. I argued with Him that I don’t have a problem, but He quickly showed me otherwise. Once my eyes were open to the truth of my deceived heart, I wept and wept genuinely repentant. Now the Holy Spirit was finally getting somewhere within my heart. By comparing myself to other young ladies I knew, my behavior seemed saintly. But we must stop comparing ourselves to others and instead compare ourselves to the word of God- His standards. Many don’t realize, upon initiating the new covenant, Yeshua/Jesus raised God’s standards of holiness, for He of all people could being He died so we can be holy, like God is holy. Notice, Jesus/Yeshua taught just looking at another lustfully is considered adultery and a violation of God’s commands versus simply the act of adultery as a violation.

Until there is a new heaven and new earth, evil will always linger. People will continue to be deceived and propagate deception. We cannot control other people’s deceived hearts. No amount of legislation, no amount of education, no amount of non-profits or ministries can thwart an unholy spirit. Not that various efforts to do so are wrong, but just realize only the Holy Spirit in each of our hearts can effectively thwart evil.

Do you want to quell abuse, violence, terrorism, anti-semitism, discrimination, pride, entitlement, unhealthy relationships, abortion, and other evils manifesting in the flesh? Allow the Spirit of Holiness to uproot the unholy spirits hiding deep within your deceived heart. It’s an ongoing ‘horribly-amazing-purification-process’, a term I often use in my blogs and vlogs, but until each of us do so, we will always experience evil. May we cry out, “Jesus, Save Me! Abba, create in me a clean heart.” ❤

Shalom and Amen.

Carrie R. Turner, 10.23.19

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Driven By Flesh

It was a partly-sunny, low-70’s winter day here in Texas this morning. A perfect day to go do some marketing as I handed out my business cards to various apartment communities in the area (my business specializes in cleaning apartments). Early on while still driving to the first apartment community on my list, I had a premonition of me being in a bad car accident. downloadIn the brief premonition, or open-eyed vision, if you will, I had just been severely struck while driving and handed my cell phone to the first responder weakly asking him to call my husband. Just that quick, the premonition vanished. I shrugged it off as a weird thought and happily went about my business.

In the past I have had these sort of prophetic warnings . Just last year, I had another premonition while driving, and it manifested moments later, but in that incident I was prepared and calmly maneuvered my vehicle to avoid the reckless SUV cutting across four lanes of traffic. Oddly, I didn’t think anything of it – I was prepared and alert and responded accordingly. Today, however, I was in my own flesh-driven world, not paying attention to the premonition, the signs, and the impression or embedded feeling of an impending accident to come.

After visiting the seven apartment communities, I decided to make one final stop at the post office. In order to access the parking lot of the post office, I needed to cross two busy lanes of oncoming traffic. I sat for a few minutes in the turn lane with my blinker on as I patiently waited for a break in the traffic. One pickup truck towing something big and bulky stopped in the lane closest to mine and graciously flashed his lights indicating it was safe to cross over. Although I couldn’t see what may or may not be on the other side of the generous truck, his flashing lights, as well as my strained glance behind him in the distance, seemed to indicate it was OK to pass, but that still small Voice said, “Don’t do it.” Due to my impatience and apparent disobedience, I gambled it all and proceeded to cross the highway. Mind you the last accident I experienced was 23 years ago at the ripe young age of 19 so I’d like to say I am normally a responsible and cautious driver. Before making it to the second lane while trusting in others flashing lights, I thought to myself, Now watch there be something barreling down the road and strike me. grille_320Sure enough I froze in fear upon seeing a metal grill of black large pickup truck about to t-bone my tiny Fiat Pop. I cried out, “Oh, God, help me!!” And instantly, my foot punched the gas pedal. I’m not even sure if it was actually me or perhaps an angel pressed my foot on the pedal because my being felt paralyzed in fear and braced for potentially fatal impact. I heard my car’s wheels squeal in urgent motion. It was awful, sudden, and perplexing how I miraculously ended up safely parked in the post office parking lot. Once the realization of the incident hit me, I sobbed as I called my husband to tell him what just occurred.

Later, after being home for awhile and sipping some chamomile tea to calm my nerves, I made myself drive to accomplish a few more errands and even traverse to the post office again just so fear would not take root in my heart attempting to lord over me. This time, the trip was uneventful.

Today, I learned to not only be grateful for every day graciously granted and everything and everyone bestowed unto me, but to never dismiss the Holy Spirit for His intention of the premonitions, the signs, and the instruction is for our own benefit.

Pay attention, beloveds, and listen closely to the Spirit for being driven by flesh is a dangerous gamble.

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Much Has Transpired

Since the last time I posted, much has transpired. Due to Hurricane Florence, we had to evacuate Myrtle Beach and our beach condo settlement date was postponed by a week. Nevertheless, God was in control and the delayed timing actually worked to our advantage (Romans 8:28). Turns out, our delayed settlement led to an even more affordable sailboat available to purchase. If you are new to this blog or my Flip Flop Fellowship YouTube channel, we listed our beach condo in order to purchase and liveaboard a sailboat. The Catalina MKii I had been closely watching online dropped in price by several thousand dollars making her even more affordable while awaiting our delayed settlement!

I could go on and go about all that has happened these last few weeks. In fact, you can watch for yourself. Be sure to subscribe to our Flip Flop Fellowship channel on YouTube to get caught up on all that has transpired in recent weeks. Since we moved on from Myrtle Beach, we are now making Season 2.  Feel free to click here to Binge watch and get caught up on all the Lord is doing in this Spirit-led journey!

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