After a day of eating gluten in various meals and snacks combined with winds blowing knee-high fields of ragweed, I recently suffered all night with gasping nasal congestion, an ongoing battle that I’ve been trying to discern the source. For months, while suffering from such consequences not understanding what I am allergic to, whispers within said things like “gluten” and “stop eating bread”, much to my dismay. While I realize there are many things I most definitely are allergic to here in Texas, namely their large bladed grass and fields of ragweed for sure, I could not image bread being an adversity. Nevertheless, neither essential oils, allergy pills, nasal spray, nor any other remedy relieved the pain and inconvenience this particular night nor many others in the past.
While trying to breath and hopefully drift off to sleep those wee small hours of the morning, that still small voice of Abba Father instructed me to intercede in prayer for “your country”. He said, “Pray for President Trump, California, New York, Mexico”, at which time I almost interjected informing God Mexico is not technically my country, but decided to not interupt my Heavenly Father when He is speaking – something my Earthly father taught me well. Abba concluded with interceding for “Alabama” in addition to the previous mentioned states though I know not why. He also lovingly informed me I need to educate myself about national and political matters so I will be able to more effectively pray this nation. I confess I avoid following politics unlike my husband who seems obsessed with such affairs. After praying, I managed to drift off asleep briefly, but have learned sleepless nights are opportunities to listen and pray or perhaps to listen and obey. So the next time you find yourself sleepless unable to breathe, consider it may be a good time to let God breathe something in and through you instead.
Our #California brothers and sisters should ‘get ready to love’ one another (even more). Likewise, we are preparing to go #serve as well should another large #earthquake manifest like we think it will in the near future. Please share this video with friends and family you may have in CA.
All believers know we are to love God and love others, but in reality, loving others doesn’t always come naturally. We all have issues, hurts, learned behaviors, and bad habits. Additionally, none of us are always going to be at the same mile marker along our faith journey. Not to mention, some people are at a place in their life that makes them unsafe. Regardless, it is likely at some point, conflict or offenses of some kind will manifest in our relationships and group fellowships. Hopefully, when such things do occur, we can allow the Holy Spirit to further mature us in God’s love for one another like a teachable moment in His time and His way. This past week, I stumbled upon a few teaching videos that help us love one another when conflict inevitably arises. I thought I would share with any followers for it is important we learn to love, which includes at times, tough love, even when it gets ugly.
If you have followed our faith journey, you know Abba Father had me start a cleaning business in whatever area He has called Jerry and I to. In doing so, He has taught me to discern and identify unholy spirits so while physically disinfecting a space, I sometimes am also disinfecting the unholy germs from that space (if I sense any). In other words, while cleaning I may be praying for that couple’s marriage or asking the Lord for financial blessings for the client or to help them with addictions or depression or any other potential spirit. I do the same while cleaning for a faith-based pregnancy resource center. Additionally, He has had me discern unholy spirits holding larger body of believers in captivity. Consequently, He instructs me to lovingly correct and encourage sometimes individuals and or groups on how to be healed from toxic germs infecting them. The reactions vary, but one thing I have been taught by the Spirit is that it isn’t my problem so to speak with how people respond to His Spirit of Holiness, but rather my problem is if I will step out in faith and obey the Spirit by indeed sharing with that individual or body of believers what the Holy Spirit wants to bless them with.
Through it all, while comparing my own experience of allowing the Holy Spirit to disinfect me, I realize the biggest obstacle the Holy Spirit encounters in us is blame. Whenever confronted with some form of evil, we as individuals and a society since the beginning of time in the Garden of Eden have blamed others hoping to thwart the consequences of evil. In Genesis 2:16-17, God instructed Adam on not to eat of a certain tree in the garden for in doing so, it would be sinning against God and consequently introduce death. Romans 6:23 says, “For the wages of sin is death.” Upon Adam being confronted by God about this grievous act of rebelling against God’s instruction not to eat of that tree, Adam blamed God Himself for giving him that woman, he also blamed Eve, and Eve blamed the deceiving serpent(Genesis 3:12-13). As a result of Adam, Eve, and the serpent going against God’s instructions, God’s command, God’s voice, all three suffered serious consequences, that still manifest today (i.e. woman still have pain in childbirth). By blaming one another, they had hoped to avoid suffering.
Out of a deceived heart, Eve and Adam rebelled against the instructions of God. How were they deceived? How are any of us deceived? If Satan can get us to doubt God’s word for us found in the Bible, we will reflect on Satan’s word, not God’s, and ultimately choose whom we will serve. Unfortunately, Adam and Eve chose to serve Satan, an unholy spirit, in that moment as do many of us today when we doubt and ultimately, reject God’s instructions for living. Adam and Eve violated God’s boundaries and had to live with the consequences. When God gives instructions for how to live and love, He means them. Tragically, due to deception conceived in doubt, mankind tends to violate God’s instructions thereby elevating themselves above God.
When God enforces His boundaries, which is still love, being tough love, designed to bless us, not harm us, mankind tends to blame others or other ideologies or even objects in attempt to avoid God’s disciplining love.
We create legislation or more boundaries as if God’s boundaries aren’t enough. We want to blame religions, blame theologies, or create counter theologies. We establish non-profits, ministries, and causes all striving to somehow feel in control when in reality only God is in control.
Rather than realizing it’s due to our own deceived hearts as the source of all evil, we prefer to blame others for in doing so it is easier than looking deep within. Due to our own spiritual captivity, we find ourselves held captive to the victim-mentality and so out of our pain we choose to blame.
Due to our own spiritual captivity, we find ourselves held captive to the victim-mentality and so out of our pain we choose to blame.
However, so long as we continue to deceive ourselves not recognizing the root source of evil, we will never truly be set free, we will never truly experience peace, wholeness, shalom.
By continuing to blame objects, others, or ideologies, all we are really doing is further putting ourselves and others into captivity.
When I was in my upper twenties, after living a decade of selfishness and rebellion to God’s instructions, I found myself in physical captivity. I was married to an abusive man. It is only by the grace of God hearing my desperate literal cry of, “JESUS, SAVE ME!” upon being suffocated and strangled by the hands of my then husband, that my eyes were opened to the unholy spirits lurking within my home and heart for at the very moment, my husband, full of an UNholy spirit, immediately let me go, saying in a different voice, “Don’t cry out to Jesus!”. It took many years, overall, with only the help of the Holy Spirit, to realize my own spiritual captivity led to that form of physical captivity. For I was like most other young ladies in my twenties, simply having sexual relations with men outside of the context of marriage. Deceived and unable to discern unholy spirits blinded by lust, in the name of love, I would dismiss the red flags subtly presented in the course of a relationship. Even if one relationship wouldn’t work out, I would find myself in yet another abusive relationship that violated my boundaries. I repeated this pattern of hooking up with boundary-busting men, not realizing that I too was a ‘boundary-buster’ because I would violate God’s boundaries as well as others’ boundaries it just manifested differently than these unhealthy men I was sleeping with. Perhaps you could say due to my deceived, boundary busting heart, I was sleeping with the enemy, an unholy spirit. Various variables manifested causing all sorts of twist and turns further leading me into an eventual dangerous captivity, but God in His goodness used it all, to reveal to me truth and love.
Once I was set free from that abusive marriage and received the Holy Spirit just weeks after our divorce, I eventually felt led to start a Domestic Violence ministry that specialized in helping pregnant victims of domestic violence housing. I had a 5 bedroom house at the time in the city in Pennsylvania so I took in pregnant young ladies fleeing from abusive relationships. Prior to doing so, I became a certified domestic violence advocate through the YWCA as well as a certified faith-based domestic violence support group leader through Focus Ministries, based out of Chicago. All of it was revealing and healing. One such critical issue I realized in time, through the Holy Spirit’s help, was that so long as I blamed my x-husband or my upbringing or whatever else, I was still not addressing what led to my captivity, which ultimately was my deceived heart. I also had to address the motive in establishing a 501(c)3 non-profit domestic violence ministry for I realized even though it was a very good thing and I sincerely wanted to help people, I was also motivated by my own hurt, fear of it happening again to others, as well as wanting to prove I am a good enough – I am a good person. In other words, my motives were not from a pure heart and I was still being held captive by a victim-mentality. In His time, Abba Father used it all to reveal me the unholy spirits rooted deep within that needed to be evicted. In doing so, His purpose was to make all things beautiful in His time (Ecclesiastes 3:11).
The Holy Spirit did what He usually does by first addressing the lie about sexual immorality being permitted outside of marriage. I argued with Him that I don’t have a problem, but He quickly showed me otherwise. Once my eyes were open to the truth of my deceived heart, I wept and wept genuinely repentant. Now the Holy Spirit was finally getting somewhere within my heart. By comparing myself to other young ladies I knew, my behavior seemed saintly. But we must stop comparing ourselves to others and instead compare ourselves to the word of God- His standards. Many don’t realize, upon initiating the new covenant, Yeshua/Jesus raised God’s standards of holiness, for He of all people could being He died so we can be holy, like God is holy. Notice, Jesus/Yeshua taught just looking at another lustfully is considered adultery and a violation of God’s commands versus simply the act of adultery as a violation.
Until there is a new heaven and new earth, evil will always linger. People will continue to be deceived and propagate deception. We cannot control other people’s deceived hearts. No amount of legislation, no amount of education, no amount of non-profits or ministries can thwart an unholy spirit. Not that various efforts to do so are wrong, but just realize only the Holy Spirit in each of our hearts can effectively thwart evil.
Do you want to quell abuse, violence, terrorism, anti-semitism, discrimination, pride, entitlement, unhealthy relationships, abortion, and other evils manifesting in the flesh? Allow the Spirit of Holiness to uproot the unholy spirits hiding deep within your deceived heart. It’s an ongoing ‘horribly-amazing-purification-process’, a term I often use in my blogs and vlogs, but until each of us do so, we will always experience evil. May we cry out, “Jesus, Save Me! Abba, create in me a clean heart.” ❤
We are meant to worship. 1 Peter 2:9 says we, those who believe Jesus is Messiah and have received Him as such, the redeemed, are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, called out so “that we may proclaim the praises of Him” who called us out darkness into His light. We are created by our Creator to be in relationship with Him…to be in covenant with Him…to worship Him and Him alone. Why? Is He some egotistical God that needs to be puffed up all day long? No. Rather, He understands we become what we behold and He wants us to be holy like He is holy presented by the Apostle Peter earlier in 1 Peter 1:16. Unfortunately, there are many unholy spirits infecting our hearts causing us to fashion and worship idols of faith.
I have been to countless places of worship full of numerous doctrines, but mostly still full of themselves. In each place, Abba Father (God) uses it all to reveal to me not just unholy spirits haunting the halls of churches or congregations, but the unholiness still pulsating in my heart as well. This is why the Lord provides us HIS Holy Spirit, also known as the Spirit of Holiness, because He specializes in removing the unholy and replacing it with holy! Perhaps that is the most accurate type of Replacement Theology – ha ha! 😉
Through my travels since being sent out or called by God to go wherever His Spirit says to go and say whatever He says to say – mostly to His people in a variety of settings, what I have discovered is we are still fashioning idols like the ancient Israelites did when they fashioned a golden calf to worship (Exodus 32). It is fascinating how we can turn anything, even godly things, into a god in of itself, an idol. People of faith often unknowingly fashion an idol out of some spiritual truth they have gleaned, or out of a spiritual gift, or we take our ministries, mission, our causes, etc. and those very good, God-given gifts or blessings become idols we worship rather than God Himself. We are guilty of worshiping these gifts instead of the Gifter. Instead of fashioning a calf out of gold, we have fashioned idols out of theologies, our spiritual gifts, our callings, our ministries and so forth. What makes it especially difficult to discern is they can actually be good things, but elevating our beliefs, practices, or ourselves above our God is obviously not a good thing. I have seen people put the gift of prophecy or their role as prophet or apostolic calling above God as if they ARE God. I have seen the concept of grace elevated so high permitting people to commit any sin abusing God’s grace putting grace above The Gracious God. I have seen believers strive to obey the laws of God and become Torah Terrorists to those who don’t as if THEY are the Lawgiver themselves. I have seen people put their identity or their own Jewish blood above Yeshua’s atoning blood. I have seen people elevate their own ministries above other ministries and even above the Ministry of Messiah. I could go on and on for we ALL do it. I am guilty of it as well – particularly if we come under various teachings or authority in whatever body of believers we align ourselves with we are subjecting ourselves to whatever that “head” thinks and instructs. For what the head thinks, the body will follow. What the eyes perceive, the vision will manifest. What you behold, you become.
For what the head thinks, the body will follow. What the eyes perceive, the vision will manifest. What you behold, you become.
I myself have been zealous for grace, zealous for the Holy Spirit and His gifts, zealous for the roles of the body of believers, zealous for accepting the whole word of God including Torah, zealous for authentic worship, zealous for embracing Jewish/Hebraic roots for more accurate revelation, etc. How easy it is for our hearts to be deceived by putting whatever spiritual truth we have gleaned as well as even false doctrines we have aligned with, whether knowingly or unknowingly, above the Discerner of Hearts.
Today, I invite you to allow the Spirit of Holiness to examine your heart and it’s motives as it looks for and uproots any unholy spirit trying to elevate themself above the Holy Spirit dwelling within you.
This evening started the Feast of the LORD known as ‘Sukkot’ in Hebrew or ‘Feast of Tabernacles’ or ‘Feast of Booths’ in English. It is commanded to rejoice during this feast. This afternoon, Jerry and I made our own ‘Lulav’. A Lulav is a collection of three branches used to rejoice which consists of the myrtle, the willow, and the palm tree branch. If you have followed along our journey, then you know God has used this particular feast to reveal more and more truth to us. To get an overview of how, check out our ‘Walk His Way’ story on the home page of our website flipflopfellowship.com. Soon, I hope to make a video of the various revelations that have unfolded and how God used the ‘Lulav’ to help teach me some important things. Happy #Sukkot, ya’ll!
This past month I have been releasing brief teachings on YouTube called ‘Signs of a False Prophet’. In a previous blog, I released the first 4 videos in this series. If you missed those, you can find that blog here.
Below are the teachings #5 – #7 of this important series. Subscribe to this blog or my YouTube channel to learn more!
Carrie shares what true prophecy is all about as well as a few real life experiences she had demonstrating how a prophecy indeed manifested, but may look different than you expect! You don’t want to miss this one!
A “chukat” is a Hebrew word found in the first few verses of this week’s Torah portion meaning “statute”. A “chukat/statute” is a command from God with no rational explanation (i.e. red heifer ashes for purification; Moses & Aaron speaking to a rock). Can you find the connections in these Bible readings?
After learning of two major earthquakes in California, Carrie discusses the possibility of a prophecy she gave this time last year manifesting! She also ties in faith of mustard seed and how it is related to prophecy.